Here I am, writing up two of this week's four journal entries at about 1:00 AM the night before the entries are supposed to be done. I'm not worried about getting these entries done for tomorrow (today?), but this procrastination raises concerns about the just-beginning semester.
I'll admit that I've regularly procrastinated homework for pretty much my entire education. Every now and then I will give myself a few days to finish something - and when I do, the process of working is far less stressful and anxiety-provoking - but to this day anxiety, a fear of stress, and to a lesser extent laziness usually get in the way of completing school work on time.
This semester of school is a significant one for me: it's my first semester at Ramapo College in which I'm taking a full course load (four courses), and my first as a writing/communication arts major. For most of college so far, I've been telling myself "it's now or never" in regards to breaking bad habits such as procrastinating; considering the circumstances of this semester, this may indeed be a good time to work on organizing my time more effectively and expanding my comfort zone.
Easier said than done, indeed. To work towards my goal of managing time, I'm going to have to take extra steps daily towards planning when to get things done. It would probably help to make reminders in plain sight, perhaps on a white board or something. I hope to figure this out soon.
On a related note, I have always enjoyed writing (at least about topics of my own interest), despite how little of it I've done recently compared to a few years ago. I'm hopeful that, as I work my way back to feeling comfortable with my own writing, I will find some of my work in this major enjoyable and therefore will find further motivation to devote more time to work.
